tisdag 30 december 2008

The age-old habit

The body-mind is trying to use the same instrument to try to understand and behold, wanting to control the unknown, awakening, the vastness, awareness. It's an immediate action happening, an age-old habit. In the beginning it's quite lost in this. It is trying to "be here now", trying to "be in the present", fantasizing what's it like to be "awakened", trying to recognize when there is awareness and when there is not. Trying to know when it knows the "unknowable".

The mind is in the search for the moment when it can declare when it has happened, the confirmation that it's enlightened. From now on there is only the enlightened life with the never-ending happiness, clarity, wisdom and the struggle and the suffering has come to an end. This play can go on some time, by old habit. The body-mind is using an instrument that is not going to work here, in this it's totally useless. It's nothing wrong with the instrument but...

The final moment when all questions will be solved and cleared is a fantasy, a hope, a bad illusion. When the futile exercise is recognized, when there is a noticing that this is really not going to work, then...

Maybe there is a opening for something new, something that has never been seen before, an invitation from existence, the life itself....maybe.


torsdag 25 december 2008

To start to functioning in a new way

You cannot recognize anything when it is new, beacause it has never haved happened, and you can never imagen it and you can never dream about it. That's why I say enlightenmnet is not a goal, it's a new begining. where you got to start to functioning in a new way.

Vasant Swaha

onsdag 24 december 2008

Right here, right now

There is nothing to sale or a agenda in this, and still it is nothing wrong if that happens. The world is as it is, pain happens, pleasure happens. This is not higly moraly thinking, rather a discovery what already is there. The action of giving help maybe is there, or not. There is no garante what is going to happen next. The next moment is not given beforehand. The action is a response to what is. The situation tells you what the next action should be. A natural flow. Look for what the "now" demands from you. Be there in the happening, whatever the happening is. Follow the direction life in every moment gives you. Right here, right now.


tisdag 23 december 2008

Merry chrismas to you all out there

Hou, hou, hou.......

Here is some words of Adyashanti.

-Nothing is pretending to be something.
-Awakening is when the argument with “what is” stops.
-If you see the truth it sets you free.
-When we die into our true nature it is so quite, because there is no argument.
-It is totally peaceful in what is outside the thinking. There is no argument of “what is”.


söndag 21 december 2008

Eli Jaxon-Bear

Here is some some interesting talks about the master and the disciple by Eli Jaxon-Bear, funny about the parrot who teaches. And as he says the more important than a authentic teacher is a true seeker.....Eli says;

My teacher said any parrot could be taught to say the words of freedom. And just hearing the words can create an enormous shock. But the parrot can only repeat the words and cannot work with the mind of the seeker. The parrot does not emanate the silent transmission of authentic being. And yet, if a true, sincere seeker sits with the parrot and projects the truth of consciousness onto the parrot, the parrot can work as a function of enlightenment. A true seeker is the most important ingredient. Then even a parrot will be useful.
My advice is to find out for yourself. No other is needed between you and your self. You have the full capacity to realize what is true for yourself. Nothing needs believing. And believing can’t touch the bliss of touching nothing.

My teacher also once said that a true student has no head and a true teacher has no teaching. In the mysterious meeting of no head and no teaching there is a transmission of silence in the most intimate way. Completely personal and truly non-personal conscious love sees itself and confirms itself.

The bliss of that meeting is unspeakable and the source of all great art, poetry, and sutras.
People project all different levels onto the so-called teacher. For some the teacher is a father projection, for others the teacher is a love object or an object of fear. For some there is attraction and for others a repulsion. Some come very close and some stay very far. Each is appropriate in its place and each can be a strategy for escape. One of the great gifts of the teacher is that the teacher does not believe your lies. The true teacher sees through you and your projections. The true teacher knows there is no difference really between master and disciple.

Eli Jaxon-Bear

lördag 20 december 2008

Eternal Holliday

In the recognition of "who am I" there is a relief, a total unburdening of the mind.
Mind has come to now why it is at easy with the unknown, no more wonder no more need to know anything, at all. The trying to be something has come to an end. Eternal hollyday.


fredag 19 december 2008

Enlightenment got to be to your satisfaction.

This clip on the Tube is about David Spero. He talks about that "Enlightenment got to be to your satisfaction." Interesting subject, and I give a comment on that.

David Spero

So here is the question; how do you know when you are enlightened? If the only person that ever can know that is you yourself, or put it more rightly; it is the awareness self that can know anything about it. There is never coming a point when someone is coming and declaring you to be enlightened or an enlightened being. So this is it.

You are never going to know when you are enlightened, if there is such a “thing”. Interesting, isn’t it? Okay then, see it from another point of view. If you know that you never can know for shore that you can be enlightened, how can you know that you are unenlightened?

It seems that we have a problem here.

So how can we know?

Any claiming about being enlightened is a proof that you isn’t. But, on the other hand it could be an enlightened one who is joking, playing with the notion.

How can you know?


If you know that you never can know then the whole idea of enlightenment collapses. It’s ridiculous. Mind game. Play with duality.

IF that happens that a person comes and declares you to be enlightened, what happens to you? How do you think the “me” is reacting to that? Think about it.

Scary, isn’t it?

And any experience, any state that could be defined as a criteria for enlightenment would be to kill the aliveness of existence, it would be a plastic flower. This is not the denying of fantastic mind blowing experiences, ecstatic moments, blissful happenings, and liberation of the “me” experience. This is all fine but, the good question is if there ever will be that everlasting goal when the existence is perfect, and it will never change anymore?

Aliveness is about uncertainty, never knowing what the next moment is bringing about. Every moment is openness into the unknown. This aliveness is a mystery and that mystery is alive. Nothing is beforehand given. Every single moment is open for anything and everything.

And still the talk of enlightenment happens, and what it really is, is up to you. That’s the freedom of it.


torsdag 18 december 2008

What is left....?

What is left...?
When the dead end of the intellektuall understanding is reached.
When all possible questions is asked.
Every thinkable enquiry is made.
Every corner of the reasoning mind is coverd.
Everything that needs to be done is done, ore can be done.
When all akting or practises has failed.
When all knowledge of the human encounter is finished.
what is left...
is there anyway...
is undeniable...

tisdag 16 december 2008

Roshitalks part two

The space of "now" is who you are. I am the space where everything take place, happens.

Awareness is Notknowing actuality or the fact of Notknowing. If you listen to this words, just said, through the filter of intellekt you miss it entairly, but if you listen to this lightly, there might be a recognition where it points to

Realization doesn't destroy the individual any more than the reflection of the moon breaks a drop of water. A drop of water can reflect the whole sky.


måndag 15 december 2008


In awareness you can ever be what you already are, just now, just here. There is nothing wrong with practice and all kind of exercises, but. It's too simple to practice. The practice would bee; bee here, right now. Now, how can you "do" that?

The miracle is constantly, effortlessly taking place in your awareness. When the "me" claims this to be some ones, the miracle vanish in to thin air and the wonder is gone. And, again when the claimer for no reason is forgotten, the magic and the wonder arises. If you stop feeding and fueling the "me", the wonder and the divine is there by itself.

Mind turns everything to a thing. Because its nature is to try to understand, control, grasp and own. When it can't its lost., when there is a talk about the "Now" or "this", immediately there seems to be someone who has this so called knowledge about it. This sense of the "me" ore "mind" is what it's all about. This someone got to be questioned, investigated. This turning everything to a thing is a habit. When this is seeing through.......when this turning is seeing through.....I don't know.....something is shining through.

If there is something to do, a goal, to become, then the mind can function properly. Otherwise it goes nuts. The doing is minds job. The rest is beyond its reach.

The words No mind, nonevent, effortlessness, inner silence points to what we are looking for, and is never attained by the "me" or the "mind" or the appearance of a person. And still it happens; somewhere in the awareness there is the registration what's going on.


tisdag 9 december 2008

The OBJECT creates the subject

Awareness creates the idea that there is something here that is separate from the appearences. That's the Illusion, there is no way to avoid it. It's natural, the demand from univers. As soon as there is an object, there appear the thought that THERE most also be a experiencer. That's the joke. That the awareness is separate from the appearences, objects. It may take a lifetime to realize it and the reason is that it is too close. It's always overlooked. The OBJECT creates the subject. The subject is the space that alowes the object to exist. The reason why everything exists at all is that it is whole.


söndag 7 december 2008


"Whatever you think you should do at any moment is precisely what God would want you to think and do."

Ramesh Balsekar

lördag 6 december 2008

The Space

One is truly happy when one is free of oneself.

Jeff Foster

Thinking happens after liberation but there is no-one listening.

Tony Parsons

It's just there waiting for you not to looking for it. When the looking stops it arises.

The space of "now" is who you are. I am the space where everything happens.


torsdag 4 december 2008


Realization doesn't destroy the individual any more than the reflection of the moon breaks a drop of water. A drop of water can reflect the whole sky.


The spiritual journey

You start the spiritual journey with the grasping and wanting of something, a thing that will dissolve all your problems, a state that will give you never ending happiness, a desire for a heaven free from sorrow and pain. You start with the desire, nothing wrong with that, but... On the journey something happens in the background, unseen. The traveler start to disappear, and there comes a point when he is totally lost and still nothing has changed. He has changed, not the existence, life. The life has always been the same, and now he is the life itself. The illusion was that he was separate from life...there is no boundaries anymore...the sky was always there behind the thick clouds.


tisdag 2 december 2008

What else is there to do?

This is what enlightenment is all about - a deep understanding that there is no problem. Then, with no problem to solve, what will you do? Immediately you start living. You will eat, you will sleep, you will love, you will work, you will have a chit-chat, you will sing, you will dance - what else is there to do?



I saw a realy heavy contradiction in writings I have published. it's this;

-Life is an ongoing cascade of unfathomable complex settles of events, it's to big to put down on some sentenses. And when we try to catsh and describe it, it already moved, it changed, it's something else, to alive.

...and in the next breath...

- It's too simpel to be communicated.

Now, is it too simpel or too complex?

Maybe we are lost in the concepts again, there seems to be no way to describe it, and jet it's "there".

At last, some quotes of the day....

"Life is fundamentaly a questionmark".
Peter Brown.

"The world can only change from within".
Eckhart Tolle.
Namaste Roshi

söndag 30 november 2008

Quotes of the day

-Dharma - to be true to your innermost being. Thats what's all about.
-Life is an ongoing cascade of unfathomable complex settles of events, it's to big to put down on some sentenses. And when we try to catsh and describe it, it already moved, it changed, it's something else, to alive.
-When I can be with that what IS, as it IS.
-The seeing mirror, the observer is the mirror. The mirror is not mixed with the reflections. It's untouched.


fredag 28 november 2008


Life is a freefall into the open nothingness. There is nowhere to land, never was...

Life is like an arrow flying through the sky....

Existens never stops....never started...never began...moving constantly nowhere....the movement is the goal itself....the aliveness

Neverending flowering of the flower

Opening...and opening...and opening


onsdag 26 november 2008

Hui-neng, the great ch'an-master

Within our mind there is a buddha, and that buddha within is the real Buddha.

What you should do is to know your own mind and realize your own buddha-nature, which neither rests nor moves, neither becomes nor ceases to be, neither comes nor goes, neither affirms nor denies, neither stays nor departs.

The dharma is nondual, and so is the mind. The path is pure and above all forms. I warn you not to use those exercises for meditation on quietude or for keeping the mind a blank. The mind is by nature pure, so there is nothing for us to crave for or give up. Do your best, each of you, and go wherever circumstances lead.
Amen to that, Roshi

tisdag 25 november 2008

Where is the focus?

Every moment is a gift. Every moment counts. What's happening here? Where's my focus? Where does the focus point in my connections with others? What is the core message?
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On the other side of the mirror

When you awake on the other side of the mirror, it's obvious. The clearity shows what was always there, waiting for you. It was never lost.

It's like looking on the ball from the outside instead from the inside, and it's still the same ball.You could ever imagine that there always was the possibility to look from a totalydiffernet perspective.

Why the shift happend?

You dont know.

How it happend?

There is no way to know.

The knower is abscent

But knowing happens.

The difference is there, not the separation, this living awakeness has always been therewaiting for you.

This openess is inviting you.


By the way, a new discovery, Peter Brown, the link;

*Reality already IS in the way that it inherently is; it has always been that way, it will always be that way, and it could not possibly be other than WHAT it is, HOW it is.

Peter Brown

måndag 24 november 2008

Quotes of Nisargadatta

As I only know the contents of my counsciousness, and as an outside world is unprovable, all perceivables are only in my mind.

Self-realization is not through knowledge of things or experiences, but through self-knowledge.

When you require anything from the world and nothing from God, when you don't desire anything, when you don't strive for anything, don't expect anything, the divine will enter you, unasked and unexpected.

Understanding confusion meens becoming free from it.

You will recive everything you need when you stop asking for what you do not need.

You cannot transcend what you do not know. To go beyond yourself you must know yourself.


lördag 22 november 2008

Thoughts is not the enemy

We don't need to eliminate thoughts completely; we just need to arrive at the point where thoughts can float through awareness without producing any disturbance.

torsdag 20 november 2008

The chasing Buddha

Meditation allows us to merge into a transcendental ocean of calmness, this vast ocean of impersonal silence.


What a word

What a force

It's the urgency to love and be loved that gives birth to this world.

How it happens, no one will ever know. You can become one with the source, but you can't know it.

You can be love. What it is, you cannot know.

The days are over when you can turn away from love.

Love is on the hunt now.

I am reminded of a story by Buddha. In the begining of the search you are chasing Buddha, in the end you are chased by the buddha.



Enlightenment is when you realize you are the sky.

You might be in this world, but not of it.


onsdag 19 november 2008

The dreamworld

"Just realise you are dreaming a dream you call the world and stop looking for ways out. The dream is not your problem. Your problem is that you like one part of your dream and not another. Love all or none of it, and stop complaining. When you have seen the dream as a dream, you have done all that needs to be done".

Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

On the other side of the mirror

When you awake on the other side of the mirror, it's obvious. The clearity shows what was always there, waiting for you. It was never lost.

It's like looking on the ball from the outside instead from the inside, and it's still the same ball.You could ever imagine that there always was the possibility to look from a totaly different perspective.
Why the shift happend?
You dont know.
How it happend?
There is no way to know.
The knower is abscent
But knowing happens.
The difference is there, not the separation, this living awakeness has always been there waiting for you.
This openess is inviting you.

lördag 15 november 2008

About personal Enlightenment

The deluded consciousness is the state in which I believe that I am an individual in the world. The awakened state knows the whole world is in me. So there is no personal Enlightenment. There is not an individual that arrives to some fantastic state called Enlightenment. The individual dissolves as a separate entity and appears again as consciousness.


The Booby Prize!

I have said this before. Enlightenment is the ultimate and final

The Booby prize. Grattulation!

You lose everything and get nothing.

The ultimate and final disappointment.


There is no-one. Never was. There was an appearance of a one,
a person, a "me". This appearance has a nearly hypnotically effect on everything we sense.
With a closer look there is only emptiness, a vastness, nothingness.....and

It seems so real, amazing.

And we...

..believe in this person, this mind.

Maybe it's the only problem, or...

It is what it is

To truth, enlightenment is useless.

tisdag 11 november 2008

Life has no centre

Jeff says here something beautiful....the center;

Life has no centre because it has no circumference. There’s nowhere where it ends, nowhere where it begins. It is simply a spontaneous expression of aliveness, happening now, now and now, leaving no trace of itself, projecting nothing into the future, concealing nothing, giving itself totally and completely and exhausting itself in that expression, leaving no residue. It is all things, and yet it is no thing.

Jeff Foster

His website:


Eli Jaxon-Bear

When you realize yourself as completely empty and devoid of all form...this is wisdom.
When you realize yourself as the fullness of love overflowing itself without object...this is bliss.

And when you are aware of yourself incarnate in the appearance of form...this is leela.

Eli Jaxon-Bear

lördag 8 november 2008

The Power of Now

This clip as I understand or se is the essential of Eckhart Tolle. If there is any resonans to this...THIS is it...or this IS is IT

Beautiful...isn't it?


what it is not

God or the essential nature is not something, not content, not form. Best description through words is to say what it is not. Not what it is. Then you are left with what it is, and cannot be named. But can be known. It can be known in the silent, space of stillness.

Eckhart Tolle

fredag 7 november 2008

Silent listening

My words are not important. What is important is your silent listening. You are listening in silence; I am speaking in silence. My words reach to you with some freshness, with some fragrance; and because you are silent, that fragrance, that silence, deepens your silence -- makes it fragrant.


onsdag 5 november 2008


Love is the greatest gift of God. Learn the art of it. Learn the song of it, the celebration of it. It is an absolute need: just as the body cannot survive without food, the soul cannot survive without love. Love is the nourishment of the soul, it is the beginning of all that is great, it is the door of the divine.


måndag 3 november 2008

Mental movies

Words weave stories. They create mental movies that seem entirely believable and real. In this movie-world of thoughts and stories, it appears that "I" am inside this skin, and everything else is "out there." It appears that "I" am incomplete, forever in need of improvement or modification. "I" seek happiness and enlightenment in the future, chase after bigger and better experiences, compare "myself" to "others," and idolize those imagined to possess something special that "I" lack.

Joan tollifson

What she says, is interesting. The story. The movie that is running. I am not enough enlightend. I am not good enough. Not here. Not today. Not me. The constant comparing, never ending. It 's going on and on. Always tomorrow. Then she says:

Investigate this directly. Return attention to actuality. See for yourself. Can you actually find the doer, the thinker, the experiencer, the operator, the director, the one who is supposedly in charge here, or the one who appears to be trapped, the one who supposedly needs to awaken?

Can you?

Can you find?


Dancing emptiness

To awaken to the absolute view is profound and transformative, but to awaken from all fixed points of view is the birth of true nonduality. If emptiness cannot dance, it is not true Emptiness. If moonlight does not flood the empty night sky and reflect in every drop of water, on every blade of grass, then you are only looking at your own empty dream.


söndag 2 november 2008

Ego and feeling miserable

Feeling miserable....when it's there...

Whenever you are miserable, just close the eyes and don't try to find some cause outside. Try to see from where this misery is coming.

It is your own ego.

If you continuously feel and understand, and the understanding that the ego is the cause becomes so deep-rooted, one day you will suddenly see that it has disappeared. Nobody drops it - nobody can drop it. You simply see; it has simply disappeared, because the very understanding that ego causes all misery becomes the dropping. THE VERY UNDERSTANDING IS THE DISAPPEARANCE OF THE EGO.

And you are so clever in seeing the ego in others. Anybody can see someone else's ego. When it comes to your own, then the problem arises - because you don't know the territory, you have never traveled on it.

The whole path towards the divine, the ultimate, has to pass through this territory of the ego. The false has to be understood as false. The source of misery has to be understood as the source of misery - then it simply drops.

When you know it is poison, it drops. When you know it is fire, it drops. When you know this is the hell, it drops.

And then you never say, "I have dropped the ego." Then you simply laugh at the whole thing, the joke that you were the creator of all misery.

Osho about dropping the ego

lördag 1 november 2008

There is.....

What is sought remains hidden from the seeker by already being everything.


But all of that, all of those ideas are adopted lessons about how it should be. The ego is what’s happening. The ego is just being ego. Thinking is just being thinking. There is only being. There is just being. There’s nothing else. There’s nobody that’s running that. There’s no destiny, there’s no God, there’s no plan, there’s no script, there’s nowhere to go because there is only timeless being.

Being is totally whole just being. And it is alive and fleshy and sexy and juicy and immediately this; it’s not some concept about ‘there’s no-one here’. It’s not some concept about ‘there’s nowhere to go’. It is the aliveness that’s in that body right now. There is pure beingness, pure aliveness.

That’s it.

End of story.

Tony Parsons

fredag 31 oktober 2008

Hsin Hsin Ming

When no discriminating thoughts arise, the old mind ceases to exist.
When thought objects vanish, the thinking-subject vanishes,
as when the mind vanishes, objects vanish.
Things are objects because of the subject (mind); the mind
( subject) is such because of things (object).

Hsin Hsin Ming

torsdag 30 oktober 2008

The first snow

The first snow has arrived. The dreamlike feeling appears when the first snow changes the entire landscape. The snowflakes falling slowly to the ground without any noise…it’s beautiful…it’s magic. A snowquote by Genpo:

When we give up our preconceptions of where the snow should fall and let it fall where it falls, then there is no question about what to do.


The winter is here and it smiles at me...

Cheers Roshi

söndag 26 oktober 2008


I was going throu some notes and found this golden nuggets, and I don't remember who wrote them, but here they are....

Awakening is absolute intimacy with life. When this intimacy is total, you realize that life is absolute impersonal. That is the biggest joy there is.

In the moment of awakening consciousness recognizes it self in all things.

The awake state is always present behind the illusion. It is not "attained", it is what is always there and comes forth when the illusion is busted.

When awakening happens, truth is realized to be much, much simpler and more obvious than you ever imagined it to be.



Well aren't we that anyway....what's the difference if ther is a name? Just a sound......?


lördag 25 oktober 2008

Live show

Life is a directly sent live show. It’s meaningless to regret, done is done, forget and keep on. This show is totally pointless and alive, aliveness itself. This show is complete in the same moment when the happenings occur. Nothing is missing.

Neverending live show.

Here and now.


Or not....


fredag 24 oktober 2008

My brand new e-book for free

My new e-book is now available. It's free for everyone to download the file. Hope you folks enjoy the reading. Now some words from Nukunu:

There is a reality inside everyone that is always free. When the mind relaxes, this reality appears by it self. It can not be brought out or cultivated forth because it is there already. It is only discovered by relaxing as awareness into what is experienced here and now because everything is essentially that unconditional freedom.


torsdag 23 oktober 2008


Realisation is the absence of the person. As long as there is a realized person ther is no realisation whatosever. The truth is in the now, very fragile. Always alive. Nobody can catch it. Nobody can hold it. Because it holds us. And it catches us.

You have to surrender everything, everything you know. You have to leave everything you believ to be true. All your methods, all your stuff. You have to go to the truth naked. In not knowing.

In true humility.

In true surrender.

Francis Lucille

onsdag 22 oktober 2008

It drops just like a dead leaf

It drops just like a dead leaf.

The tree is not doing anything - just a breeze, a situation, and the dead leaf simply drops. The tree is not even aware that the dead leaf has dropped. It makes no noise, it makes no claim - nothing.

The dead leaf simply drops and shatters on the ground, just like that.
When you are mature through understanding, awareness, and you have felt totally that ego is the cause of all your misery, simply one day you see the dead leaf dropping.

It settles into the ground, dies of its own accord. You have not done anything so you cannot claim that you have dropped it. You see that it has simply disappeared, and then the real center arises.

And that real center is the soul, the self, the god, the truth, or whatsoever you want to call it.
It is nameless, so all names are good. You can give it any name of your own liking.


torsdag 16 oktober 2008

What you want

Stop looking for what you want, in THIS moment. Not tomorrow when you have it. But in this moment. Whatever that is what you want. Stop Looking and....

You will find more then you would ever want.

Because more then could be wanted...

is already who you are.

To simple to be grasped. . But absolutely, complete realizably.


måndag 13 oktober 2008

Stop! Look! Listen!

Stop. Look. Listen.

There it is.

Hear the traffic, the birds, the wind. Feel the breathing.

Nothing special.

Everything is already there, waiting for you, a velcome is needed.

Just the extraordinary miracle of what actually is.

The miracle of actuality.

Nothing special.

And yet..........

söndag 12 oktober 2008

I am

I AM is a feeling of permanent awareness. The very center of consciousness is the feeling of I AM. I may forget who I am, where I am, what I am but I cannot forget that I AM. The awareness of being remains, regardless of the degree of forgetfulness of who, where, and what I am.


torsdag 2 oktober 2008


Over time, one comes to realize the Essential Nature of life by simply watching through silent observation. The Essential Nature of existence is often referred to as “emptiness”—empty like silence. This essence is called “empty” because it has no actual content, no substance, no concepts, and no fixed abode. Emptiness is even empty of the idea of emptiness.

Yet the emptiness we come to realize is the essence of life. It permeates and defines the forms of consciousness. This emptiness effortlessly pours forth infinite and unbounded possibilities, which we call existence. Although emptiness defines and fills all forms, our Essential Nature is free of limitation and definition. It is everywhere and nowhere at once. It is our undividable essence.

Freedom is understanding that this boundless perfection is indeed the Truth within all that ever has been, or ever can be. You can only experience real freedom through realization of this simple, obvious, silent, and ever-pervasive Truth. Our Essential Nature has only one identity, which is everything and nothing at once. Observe the passing, ephemeral, impermanence of time and all it appears to contain. Through this observation Truth is revealed in the heart... within oneself.


Catch the ball!!

Nice analogy about what a so called enlightend teacher will offer you:

An enlightened teacher is somebody who throws you a "ball" - the ball of awakening. Are you ready to catch it?

Most people are not interested. They don't want the ball at all - not even if they could have it for free.

A very small percentage ARE interested. The majority of those are just curious. A tiny percentage is burning for the ball and play with it, but they don't believe that they are ready to catch it. And the really odd ones are ready to risk everything for it.

If you really want to catch the ball, you just catch it right away. No need for meditation and spiritual discipline. However, maybe you believe that you are ready to catch the ball, but for some reason miss every time it comes your way - and even if you get hold of it, it keeps on slipping out of your hands?


söndag 28 september 2008

What solution is needed to an imaginary problem?

"This is simply what is, as it is. There is no "you" to attain or "get" this. There is only this. The "you" who seems to be separate is imaginary. What solution is needed to an imaginary problem?"

The movements of mind are like weather. No one owns the weather. It's not something to be conquered or eliminated. Simply see it for what it is: a great show, an appearance -- momentary and ephemeral, a mirage world.

Everything perceivable and conceivable is a kind of movie, like waves on the surface of the ocean. Look deeper and you discover that no-thing is happening. There is nobody to wake up. The problems are imaginary. What solution is needed to an imaginary problem?

Joan Tollifson


All of this is a cloud of illusion obscuring the truth of who and what we are." Stuart defines wisdom as seeing through this set-up. When we can be present to all that appears, then Presence is revealed, and this Presence can absorb all that is held.

Presence then fills the space surrendered by our long-held core beliefs and begins to permeate our lives. What is even more beautiful is that life begins to reflect a state of ease and well being natural to Presence alone.


"What you are afraid of happening in the future is what you are living, in the present."

"When we take our attention off the individual we experience something miraculous - our nature, our essence, and that is a state of contentment that is causeless."

"What you believe about others is what you believe about yourself."


onsdag 24 september 2008

Quotation of the day

"The visible is a shadow cast by the invisible"


Who you are and who you believe yourself to be are two different things. Who you are comes before you know yourself as this person.


We are all already awake, it is the natural state, and its nature is known when one is conscious of ‘being’ before clicking into identifying as the personal identity. This awakeness is the all pervading fullness of only ‘Good’ with no space left for anything else.


måndag 15 september 2008

Point of no return

We have a natural functioning of the mind as, reasoning, looking for patterns (even if there is
no-one.), putting words for everything, labeling, conceptualizing. That has an impact on us, but we are unaware of it.

When the recognizing of what is going on happens, when the attention is on it, it starting to loosening, the impact has not the same effect. The thinking is just a functioning and has no power of itself. Thinking is not life, it is part of life. Comes and goes like clouds in the evening sky.The magic key; is put attention on it.

With a talk or dialogue or conversation about the subject, a process start to function in the background, awareness is awakening to itself, what’s going on is revealed. The false canot stand a investigation. From now on there is no denial of the fact. Point of no return.


söndag 7 september 2008


He is from the netherlands and holds meetings there, interessting "pointer"...listen;

let go of your attention like an eagle in free fall and discover what lies there waiting for you all the time.To speculate about or hope for what is there waitingfor you, is called Religion. To know what is here is called Philosophy or Esoteric knowledge. To really remain here and live from here is Self-realization.”

Realise that you can’t get the truth.
Self-realization is not overlooking
anymore what IS and always has been!


fredag 5 september 2008

You are already present

Before you even recognize the fact of being conscious, you are already present as the one who recognizes that fact.

Start with the fact of your own being. Is that a concept or hypothesis? Have a good look right into that, to understand the nature of what is present. Books are of little help in this. You have to look for yourself. So start with something verifiable and tangible as a self-evident fact, your own presence.

When all concepts are abandoned, your natural being still remains vividly present and cognizing, even cognizing the coming and going of consciousness. That prior-to-consciousness presence is sometimes pointed to as non-conceptual awareness. Some traditions call it the non-fabricated, space-like awareness of the natural mind. Others call it unconditioned consciousness. Still others call it "pure" or "infinite" consciousness, meaning consciousness with no limits or conditions. The key points in all the traditions are the same: You are That, your own nature is the reality, etc. This is NEVER an attainment, but the ever-present natural condition.

Non-duality is not a future state, dependent on your mind. Non-duality is the ever-present natural state in which the mind and all else appears. You are that reality. All that appears is only a manifestation of that one primal awareness. You are not separate from that, nor are the appearances. That is ever-present non-duality, the natural state.

Quotes from John Wheeler

måndag 1 september 2008

Prajnaparamita speaking about Silence

Charge your batteries in places of stillness,rest deeply in places of stillness,be rejuvenated and inspired and encouraged to fully surrender to the ultimate place of silence, your very Self.

The whole journey is building momentum for the very last step. It is this last step that brings us home. It is this very last step that is seldom made. In this very last step, alone and in deepest silence, all knowledge, all insights, and all sense of I will be erased and peace will overwhelm you.


tisdag 26 augusti 2008

Unveiling Reality

Waking up is not necessarily pleasant:
you get to see why all this time, you chose to sleep.

When you wake up, the first thing you will see is
Reality does not exist for you, you exist for it.

Shocking as it is, when you let it in, there is rest.
You do not have to labor anymore to hold together
a reality that does not exist; forcing something to be real that is not real.

You and this life you have been living are not real ...
In letting it in, even through the shock... pain... shattering, there is rest.

Reality is when all you want to know is what is true ...
just so that you can let it in and be true.

Reality is not a safe place for you -the you that you have created.
It is the only place where you would die;
where there is no room for your hopes, your dreams.

Once you have let it in,once you begin to re-awaken;
to let Reality wake you up, nothing can get it out.

That is the beginning of your end.
Waking up can be much more painful than the agony of your dream,
but waking up is real ...

And there will be integration: a merging of Reality and you.
You and Reality will become one in a world
that does not accept nor want one, but two.

You will become a beloved servant
instead of a controlling master..."

J d R

torsdag 21 augusti 2008

Unending Mystery

It's not possible to explain or understand what is going on, It is an unending mystery. No one is responsible. It's unconditional and has no reason, whatever. It is what it is and then it changes. You can se it for yourself and you got to se it for your self. Othervise it is a belife, a thought, and its not going to help. I am, or this body, acts properly according to the world, and behave inside the social rules. But inside I know it is only a play, a cosmic game wich can end any time. The madness, or the No-mind, the unending mystery, is never far away. This can never be expressed, cause it self is "it"

It's never too late for "now"!


tisdag 12 augusti 2008

More Scott

'This' expresses itself in every perspective and every experience. It expresses itself in whatever way it is expressing itself right now.

Don't deny any aspect of your experience.

Liberation is open to what is.

This truth to which the words enlightenment and non-duality are pointing will steal every conclusion you have, every illusion you want to hold onto. Suffering happens when the “you” gets stuck on the belief that something that is happening should not be happening or the belief that something that is not happening should be happening. Liberation is life simply living itself spontaneously now without the “me” trying to make it happen or keep it from happening. So take the pointer “life living itself” and let it show you that you are liberation. Then drop it. It ain't the truth. The truth cannot be expressed. Or, rather, it is expressing itself in every way in each moment.

Liberation is realizing that life is living itself and manifesting as a wonderful array of shapes, colors, ideas, people, buildings, coffee cups, flowers, clouds, planets, bubble wrap, staplers, spiritual practices and Jesus portraits. 'This,' however, is the waking up from attachment to all ideas about 'This.'

‘This’ is the realization that you are not the doer of any action. You (the story) are not ‘doing’ the thinking. You are not ‘doing’ the feeling. You are not ‘doing’ the engaging in spiritual methods. You are not ‘doing’ the noticing of thoughts. Thinking, feeling, engaging in practices, and noticing are arising now. These are manifestations of One Source. 'This' is arising in a multitude of manifestations including thinking, not thinking, feeling, not feeling, noticing, not noticing, practicing, not practicing, searching, not searching, doing, and not doing. Those things are just arising. You are much like an opening in which things are happening or not happening.

Scott Kiloby

fredag 8 augusti 2008

Scott Kiloby

On the net I found a guy who have some to say about what's all about, some quotes...Scott..

Do you want to know the truth? Look at what is in this moment. That is why the truth is simple. It is this timeless awareness within you right now that is looking through your eyes. This awareness is beyond ideas. Therefore, the truth is beyond ideas. Ideas are only ever arising within that awareness. “You” are merely one of those ideas.

When awakening happens, truth is realized to be much, much simpler and more obvious than you ever imagined it to be.

The fullness is only realized when nothingness is seen to be our true nature. Only a true transformation beyond concepts can grasp the seemingly paradoxical nature of what was just said

There is nothing to know. Nothing to seek. Nothing to find. There is only the watching of this dance of life. No watcher. The mind is clear, empty space. The heart is connected to all that it sees. The within is the without.

Your entire search for enlightenment is happening in enlightenment. Your entire search for presence is happening in presence. Your search for beingness is happening in beingness. The search for life is being conducted by life itself. You are that which you are seeking. When this is realized, it is seen that no word, idea, philosophy, conceptual understanding, belief system, or pointer could ever get you any closer to ‘This,’ which is what you already are right now.

‘This’ is so simple, so obvious, and so immediately close that it is missed as soon as you go looking for it or as soon as you start trying to find it in thought.

Everything is spontaneously arising in this moment out of nowhere.

When the mind stops referencing a "self" in past and future, awakening happens. It is realized that Oneness, God, or whatever you like to call the inexpressible, is living life through your body and mind. You are not in control. Only thought creates the story that you are the doer of action. That story references past and future in some attempt to take credit for actions that the story has no control in bringing about. In that moment there is ignorance. There is a non-seeing that thoughts of past and future are also spontaneously arising now out of nowhere. The whole story of "me" arises spontaneously out of the unknown in this moment. There is not even a 'you' telling the story. 'You' are an idea within that story.

In some mysterious way, the noticing is a portal to enlightenment. Although it is true that there is nothing 'you' can do to find enlightenment because there is no doer, there can be a noticing of what is already being done. A story of self is already being told. This story of self is made up of thoughts of past, thoughts of future, and thoughts that resist this moment. In this story, thoughts of past shape who you believe you are and thoughts of future shape who you believe you are going to become. Thoughts that resist this moment include blaming, complaining, comparing, and judging. It is falsely believed that you took action in the past and will take action in the future. This is the thought-based illusory "me." This is the entity that thinks it is in control. It has also been called the personal will. That entity believes it can realize enlightenment. But, in fact, enlightenment is realized only when that entity is seen to be a dream arising out of nothingness. It is realized when control itself is seen to be illusory.

In the total relaxation into this timeless, experiential seeing in which it is realized that you are not doing the thinking, feeling, or bringing about the noticing that happens through awareness, spiritual liberation happens. The whole false idea that you are the doer of any action lets go and life just lives itself. There is not even a 'person' there watching that. No silent witness. There is not even attachment to the idea of "no self." There is only being, living. 'This' is a celebration of life in all its forms. 'This' is a denial of nothing. It is the welcoming of everything. This is a completely natural way of being, totally untouched by the belief that you either are or are not the doer of action.

‘This’ cannot be understood through thought, and yet ‘This’ is the ultimate truth.

‘This’ is not the word ‘This.’ The word ‘This’ is just a map. You would not explore Germany only by looking at a map. To experience the reality of this thing called “Germany” you would have to walk its hills, visit its towns, lie in its grass, and speak to its people. You would have to experience the reality of it for yourself. The map would never show it to you. Neither the word ‘This’ nor any other word, including beingness, awareness, oneness, God, presence, or enlightenment will ever show you ‘This.’ The words are only maps. You must directly experience life with your awareness, your body, your mind, and your senses to know ‘This.’ This moment is showing you ‘This’ always. There is simply a dream of you obscuring the realization of it. When the dream of "you" gets lost in the map, 'This' cannot be realized. But when the dream of "you" stops believing that you are separate from this other thing called "life" and that you need something from "life," 'This' is realized.

In truth, no one ever realizes 'This.' It is realized. Yes, that is true. But as long as there is a "you" looking for it in the future, it will not be realized. As long as there is a "you" trying to separate yourself from others who you believe get 'This' or don't get 'This,' it will not be realized. 'This' is only realized in your absence. In realizing there is no you as a separate person, and in wanting nothing in return from 'This,' 'This' is given.

Language creates only the illusion of knowing.


Think of your favorite description of the truth. Maybe for you it's God, enlightenment, awareness, oneness, or truth. Use it to help you notice what is. But jump completely off the point. Any of it can become a point of fixation. To have no point of reference is to be free, even from wanting or not wanting to have a point of reference. That is the freefall. But I'm just playing.

Scott Kiloby

onsdag 6 augusti 2008

Nothing ever happens to consciusness

Thoughts appear in consciousness, consciousness doesn’t appear in a thought. Nothing happens in a thought, a thought appears, in consciousness. A thought is whatever it is. A thought is like a wave and consciousness is like the water. You don’t have a thought without consciousness, you can have a consciousness without a thought. Nothing ever happens to consciousness, anything happens in consciousness. And it is consciousness that makes it happen.

But that which happens seems to happen, in fact nothing happens. Because there is nothing, not a thing, that can happen. Consciousness is the only thing. The things in consciousness is only appearing in consciousness. They are not the reality, consciousness is the reality of the things…..nothing happens………there is only one reality, there is nothing outside reality, there is nothing separate from it. To experience the reality of all things we have only go to our own experience, cause that is all we have. In the reality of our experience is all things, it’s that simple….

Quote of Francis Lucille

söndag 27 juli 2008

Man himself is the truth

Man himself is the truth
In a moment of total presence, in a moment of total silence,
in a moment of no grasping or rejecting
- it is suddenly obvious.
It has been there all the time, silently waiting.

Truth is very respectful. It does not interfere.
It can wait for eternity. As long as we are busy
...looking...for the truth, it waits until
we are ready to dissolve and be it.

It is not a verbal, and a intellectual understanding;
it is a shift in consciousness,
a chang of a reference point.
Instead of living as a separate individual that is aware,

suddenly you realize that you are awareness itself.


tisdag 22 juli 2008

Jean Klein

Jean Klein was a "teacher" who past away some years ago. Some Quotes of him:

"Let's say you are looking at a sculpture from Angkhor Buddhism. The smile on the face of the Angkhor statue is particularly beautiful. When you attitude is receptive, you may be completely taken by this smile...The smile captures you and you feel yourself smiling."

In a similar way, the teacher/guru/master embodies the quality that one is seeking and thus helps to bring it out in the seeker. But since this quality is our true nature, it cannot be given or transmitted from one to another. It can only be pointed to by one who already manifests it.

"All objects point to the Ultimate, and a real work of art actively brings whoever sees or hears it to his real nature, which is beauty. The difference between an ordinary object and a work of art is that the object is passive in its pointing towards the Ultimate whereas the work of art is active."

"You are primal awareness. Life is only primal awarenss. Between two thoughts or two perceptions you are. You know moments in your life when a thought completely disappears into silence, but still you are."

"My master always pointed out to me during our life together that all perceptions need an Ultimate Perceiver. The ultimate perceiver can never be the object of perception. Once false identification with the body is understood, we are led to the question 'Who am I?'--and the one who asks is himself the vivid answer. The searcher is himself that which is sought."

He describes a "glimpse of oneness or self-awareness" that occurred when he was 17:

"I was waiting one warm afternoon for a train. The platform was deserted and the landscape sleepy. It was silent. The train was late, and I waited without waiting, very relaxed and free from all thinking. Suddenly a cock crowed and the unusual sound made me aware of my silence. It was not the objective silence I was aware of, as often happens when one is in a quiet place and a sudden sound throws into relief the silence around. No, I was ejected into my own silence. I felt myself in awareness beyond the sound or the silence. Subsequently, this feeling visited my several times."

Jean Klein

tisdag 15 juli 2008

Dolano about the truth

Here are some words from Dolano about truth:

With an empty mind and open heart, out of not knowing you know. You are Truth itself, it is your very, very nature.

What is called Truth is That which is always and does not change. It is That which is before, during and after experiences; That which remains the same. It is That which does not come and go.

You are Truth itself.

Source is Truth, pure intelligence and clarity. Its nature is emptiness and openness. Truth is the light, the power, which removes lies and confusion. When you bring light into a dark room, darkness disappears naturally, without ever needing to touch or analyze darkness. You are the light.

When Osho says, "be a light unto yourself", he points to "who you are".

You are the light; who else will ever recognize if not YOU, Truth itself? Truth recognizes Truth-itself by itself.

It is That, which cannot be seen or experienced, because it is YOU. You can't see your own eyes, because they are too close to you. But "who you are" is not even close to you, it is YOU.

No beginning no end --- is always and has been always. You have only overlooked.



fredag 11 juli 2008

Quotes from Susanne Segal

-The mind can have an extremely strong reaction to that which it cannot understand. And that those reactions, such as fear, do not mean for an instant that we are not the Vastness.

-(about Susanne) She wanted her life to convey that everything is here in this Vastness, nothing is excluded, and that everything is as it is...that's her core message.

-There is no end point in all this. We are talking about the Vastness. It is very large. It continues to show Itself and show Itself.

-I call it only the "naturally occurring human state," because this is who everyone is. The most obvious thing to this view of the Vastness is that it is who everyone is. And so to call IT something like "enlightenment" or "awakening"...well, maybe. The Infinite does become something that is forefront in the awareness, so I guess you could call it a "waking up" to That. But it is not like you become something else once you see That. It is who you are. It is always who you have been. So, it is the seeing of what you have always been.

-The recognition doesn't change who you really are, ever. You have always been That. And yes, there is a way that the Vastness Itself can perceive Itself so directly, without any fogging or shading or taking anything else to be who you are. I guess you could call it a waking up, but what seems most important to convey is that this is who everyone is all the time, whether the direct awareness of it is there or not.

-These "doing" questions are the ones that I have wanted to address the most, particularly in this Western culture which is so strongly based on doing in order to accomplish something. From the point of view of the Vastness, doing something is slightly absurd. First of all, who would be doing the doing? And secondly, That which is doing has always been doing, and will spontaneously continue to do. The only answer the Vastness has been able to come up with in terms of anything resembling an answer to this question would be to see things for what they are.

-Seeing things for what they are means purely that. The Vastness that we all are is like an ocean that exists in relation to everything--as the Infinite noticing of everything being just what it is--Itself included. It sees thoughts for thoughts and feelings for feelings and sensations for sensations. There is never a desire or request that anything be anything but what it is. The Vastness knows that everything is there just as it is, so the desire for something to go away, or be something different doesn't occur.

Let me get real specific in terms of what we were talking about. A few minutes before we started taping, we spoke about the "I" construct that passes itself off as who you are, as your reference point. From the view of the Infinite, of the Vastness, that construct is seen for what it is--a construct, an idea. And an idea can only be what it is; it can only be an idea. When an idea is seen for what it is, there is a way that it empties itself of what it appeared to be full of--some defining determinant of who you are. And when the perception is emptied and seen as what it is--just a concept, a construct, an idea--it ceases to act as any sort of compelling screening of this Infinite Presence which you actually are. This seeing things for what they are is occurring all the time. That's another thing that doesn't just start at some point.

-Something happens. It seems like most of this occurs within the mind. In the Western culture, which I am most familiar with, the mind is trained to adopt a personal construct as the reference point. It just believes that there is a personal doer. It's made to believe that you have to "make something of yourself." The Western mind believes that you have to be a certain way and you have to figure out how your life is going to go in order for it to be successful, in order for it to happen the way you want it to.

Everything that you hear in the culture, in Western psychology in particular, is all based on the assumption that there is a personal doer that has to be the best one it could possibly be. So there is all this work that is brought to bear on it. It is like the work on the mind that is asked to happen within the mind. The mind has to go in and look at itself and try to see how it needs to be changed around, how the furniture needs to be moved around in the house of itself.

-The view of the eyes of the Vastness is hard to describe as it is brought to bear on anything because it isn't perceived through the mind. And it isn't perceived through the perceptual apparatus of the circuitry. The view of the Vastness, the eyes of the Vastness, exist within the Vastness Itself. It has its own sense organ that permeates it and exists at every point in it that is always seeing things for being what they are and seeing Itself for what it is.

And yet, it does seem that what happened when I was standing at that bus stop included the mind, and its circuitry became a participating portion of that sense organ of the Vastness. It's like the mind and circuitry joined into the sphere of the Vastness. Another way to describe this is that the way the mind and circuitry are always permeated with the sense organ of the Vastness must have come foreground and then that took over as the main perceptual stance or position, a position of placeless origin.

-Seeing something for what it is implies seeing with the eyes of the Vastness.

-Question: How does one shift from seeing through the personal eyes to seeing through the eyes of the Vastness?

SUZANNE: Your question is contrary to how the Vastness actually exists, which is that it is always perceiving things for what they are from within Itself. The implication that one should figure out what to do in order to see with the eyes of the Vastness implies that that isn't already constantly occurring, and you have to do something to connect with that. I have always hesitated to say, "do this or do that." I say only "see with the eyes of the Vastness," which is already happening, because this leaves the mind confounded about what to do.

-The mind needs to recognize that it doesn't know. The mind needs to see that there is nothing for it to do. It is not the doer and it doesn't have to find the correct position. It's like, That which has been happening all the time and which has always been the doer, finally shows Itself to Itself for what it is.

-That showing Itself to Itself just happens. It just happens and it is always happening. There is this wave of constancy of the Vastness perceiving Itself that is always going on and the mind can say, "How am I going to do that? How am I going to perceive that? How am I going to perceive that wave of perception that is always perceiving itself? How am I going to connect with it? What can I do in order to see with those eyes that are seeing all the time?" All of those questions are just thoughts in the mind. In seeing things for what they are, the Vastness is doing the very thing that the mind tries to figure out how to do.

-If I gave a practice, it would be colluding with that same construct that passes itself off as the doer.

-Spiritual practices imply that something has to be done in order to become the Vastness or in order to see that the Vastness has always been the doer. That is part of what I think this life of Suzanne has just been arranged to convey--that this is always who everyone is, nothing changes. This is always who the doer has been. It is seeing itself all the time, in every moment.

-The truth of this life is interested in showing everyone that things are what they are and that is the relieving of suffering. You don't have to make something look different in the world in order for suffering to be relieved. It is that which everyone is, seeing everything for what it is, that makes it impossible for anything to be seen as suffering. It is simply and completely what it is; it is going on all the time.

-The mind has a very strong reaction to this which it can't grasp, and which is basically structured in a mystery that is so completely confounding.

-The mind exists within the Vastness, so how could the mind comprehend it?

-You know that you don't know and you know that the Vastness is experiencing Itself. These two experiences are going on simultaneously, seeing the construct of the "I," the personal reference point, and seeing that it is empty of what it was taken to be full of. Simultaneity is very much the experience of the Vastness perceiving Itself, by the way, because that is what is always occurring.

-There is the arising of appearances, which actually do appear, and there is also the recognition that there is nothing really there. The emptiness I am is what they are made of.

-"How am I going to get anything done when there is no one here to do it?" "If there is no one here to do, how is anything going to get accomplished?" Then it became so clear that that which had always been doing had always been taking care of everything. So, nothing really changed.

-The real doer is so unimaginable, so completely mysterious. Everything that has been calculated as the next thing to happen is calculated in that mystery. If it waited for the mind to figure out what the next thing to do was, then, well, I don't think we would have what is naturally occurring as the planet and its seasons.

If everything waited for the mind, do you think that we would have all these trees and sky and planets and stars and human bodies? It would really be a bummer if it waited for the mind to imagine it, in order for it to be there. So, doing and accomplishing continues as before, and as a matter of fact, is even more fully accomplished, even more fully doing. There is not ever a screen or a question of how things are going to happen; they just happen.

-Question: Is it true that relationships are always serving that non-personal desire of the Vastness to know Itself?

SUZANNE: Yes. Just as it is true that there has never been a personal doer, that has always been true.

-I see this as always occurring, that no one changes when what is, is seen to be what it is. I also think that meditation is fine, but who is it that would stop the mind? And, stopping the mind is something that is not required, because the Vastness doesn't use the mind to perceive itself. Also, the "I" that would be brought to bear to try to make the mind stop doesn't really exist. If it is obvious to meditate, then that is what you are going to be doing.

If it is obvious to not do that, then it is obvious to not do that. Again, I see how trustworthy the Vastness is, and it shows Itself in this obviousness all the time. You don't need any reasons for living by what is obvious. This is just what you do. You meditate, you don't meditate.

-That everything is there too, and it is what it is. This means that looking for life to be a certain way comes completely out of the mind and its ideas of how things are supposed to be.

-The fear didn't change the recognition that there was no personal reference point.

-The mind is not the central doer. The mind isn't needed for what it previously thought it was necessary for. I think that is the most important thing that this life is conveying. There has never been a personal doer. The seeing that there is no personal doer is not when it starts that there is no personal doer. This gets into something that I actually want to convey. This is the kind of thing you want to mention, that seeing everything is being done by a non-personal doer is not the same as nothing being done. The obvious will still always be showing itself. It is really ultimately unavoidable to live by the obvious because it is always showing itself.

Susanne Segal (1955 -1997)

söndag 6 juli 2008

Susanne Segal

Quotes from Susannes book "Collision with the Infinite".

"This life is now lived in a constant, ever-present awareness of the infinite vastness that I am."

"The presence of any thoughts, feelings, or actions is never interpreted to mean anything other than that they are present."

"... no judgment about good or bad or right or wrong ever arises; everything is simply what it is."

"Once the mind admitted to the parameters of its own sphere and stopped pathologizing what lay outside it, the non-personal, indescribably joyful flavor of the vastness experiencing itself moved radically to the foreground forever."

" as usual continues to unfold; everything gets done, just as it did before the realization of the vastness occurred. Since there has never been a personal doer in any case, the realization of this truth does nothing to change how functioning occurs."

"To live in the vastness of the naturally occurring state is to bathe in the ocean of non-personal pleasure and joy. This joy and pleasure, which belong to no one, are unlike any joy or pleasure that appear to refer or belong to a someone. The emptiness is so full, so total, so infinitely blissful to itself."

"In no I suggesting that practices should not be done, only that there is no practitioner who is the doer behind them. This is true of every activity. ... Just because there is no practitioner (and never has been)) does not mean that practice will not take place. If it is obvious for a particular spiritual practice to occur, then it will."

"In fact, there is no individual 'I' who can figure out how to find the infinite again. More importantly, where would the infinite go? I mean, we aren't talking about something that could hide under the rug. If you could see things as only and exactly what they are, you would see that the 'you' that is seeing is the vastness itself."

"The 'character work' prescribed by psychotherapy, as well as by some spiritual traditions, including Zen Buddhism, leads to a similar trap created by not seeing things to be simply what they are. A relaxation of being naturally arises if one is not seduced into taking ideas to be truth. This relaxation is antithetical to 'character work', with its clear position about how we would be if our characters were worked on. When we knock on the door of 'character work', we are invited into the labyrinth of futurity. It is inherently impossible to arrive at a goal that is predicated on an 'I' that will get us there. Character work is based on the same erroneous belief that there is an individual doer who runs the show of life and can train itself to be a better 'I'.

"...I can no longer call what I do psychotherapy, since it in no way adheres to any standard principles of psychological theory or intervention. My goal for everyone is freedom -- total freedom. I don't want them to change how they feel, work through childhood trauma, or get symptoms to stop. I want them to be free by seeing that things are just what they are."

"Who distinguishes between the true and the false (self)? And true and false for whom? Thoughts, feelings, sensations, and energetic frequencies do not mean anything about some imaginary someone; they simply are what they are."

"We are the vastness, and we contain everything -- thoughts, emotions, sensations, preferences, fears, ideas, even identifications. Nothing has to go anywhere. In any case, where would it go?"

"The purpose of human life has been revealed. The vastness created these human circuitries in order to have an experience of itself out of itself that it couldn't have without them. "

"The substance of the vastness is so directly perceivable to itself in every moment that the circuitry at times requires another adjustment phase to get used to more infinite awareness. When asked who I am, the only answer possible is: I am the infinite, the vastness that is the substance of all things. I am no one and everyone, nothing and everything -- just as you are."

"We have become convinced that the presence of particular thoughts, feelings, or actions is the only way we can really know if someone is enlightened. The checklist of enlightened attributes is both lengthy and complex. Is this really love, we ask, in the presence of a supposedly enlightened being? Or bliss? Do they still have thoughts, we want to know, since we have heard that a mind empty of thoughts is surely a sign of spiritual advancement? And what is this? Is fear present? Well, the presence of fear proves they couldn't possibly having a true spiritual experience. In fact, however, the presence of fear means only that fear is present, and nothing more."

Suzanne Segal

Suzanne Segal died of a brain tumor in 1997 at the age of 42.

fredag 4 juli 2008

The shift

Consciousness is present in its purity before the mind arises. What is before a thought appears? To realise that is to realise a gap, a discontinuity and in that moment there is a shift in consciousness, which we call an awakening.

The shift is very radical. In the state of ignorance consciousness has identified itself with a fragment of itself; that fragment is what we call ego – the experience of being a separate entity, the world and me as two things. In the moment of awakening consciousness realizes that it is both the ego – the me, and the world. That is the experience of one-ness.

In reality there is only one actor-consciousness. There is only consciousness playing all the roles, world and me. Awakening is to realize that I am consciousness whatever form and name it has.The deluded consciousness is the state in which I believe that I am an individual in the world. The awakened state knows the whole world is in me.

So there is no personal Enlightenment. There is not an individual that arrives to some fantastic state called Enlightenment. The individual dissolves as a separate entity and appears again as consciousness.

Everything is pure consciousness. When it takes form of something experiences arises. Thoughts, feelings and perceptions are expressions of pure consciousness. So are chocolate, soap powder, vomit, cars, trees, people, shit, sky, sea and so on! Everything is it.Waking up you “know” this and even if the whole world denies it, it will still be so.

Since everything is consciousness there is no matter. Matter is just another appearance of consciousness.


torsdag 3 juli 2008


There is a Zen story about a seeker that comes to the Master asking for guidance. The Roshi gives him a spiritual praxis and asks him to report back regularly about his progress on the spiritual path.

After a short while the first letter arrives saying. “I am sitting in pure bliss”. The Master throws the letter in the waist bin.

Another letter arrives after some weeks reading, “everything is beautiful and perfect”. The Master hardly reads it and throws it away.

Again some time is passes and another letter arrives reading, “There is only oneness”, the Master doesn’t even open the letter.

Long time is now passing and no letters, finally the Roshi writes the disciple reminding him about their contract.

Again a long time is passing and no answer. The Roshi sends another letter.

When the Roshi has nearly given up ever hearing more form the disciple a letter arrives with a short message, “who bothers”.

The Master is overjoyed.”

måndag 30 juni 2008

Enlightenment, special?

Enlightenment is the ultimate disappointment, if you are looking for something "special".

It's amazing what happens when thought is seen for what it is.

Jeff Foster

lördag 28 juni 2008


"Do not expect the final Understanding in any way to change your life. Your life will continue to happen strictly according to the cosmic law and destiny!"

What is Enlightenment?

According to Ramesh's concept, Enlightenment or Self Realisation is the total realisation that no one is a doer.

"Do not expect the final Understanding in any way to change your life. Your life will continue to happen strictly according to the cosmic law and destiny!"

Ramesh Balsekar

torsdag 26 juni 2008


The doorway to your being is whatever is in this moment....this moment...this moment.

Föredrad av Nirmala: The Experience of This Moment, Satsang with Nirmala...

The First Instant

The First Instant is this ever-present actuality - which is nothing other than the boundless being-ness of what you truly are. You cannot move away from this instant and you never have been anywhere other than right here 'in' and 'as' this one and only first instant.

This, as a concept, is considerably challenging even though the actuality of its obviousness is undeniable for anyone that really examines the present evidence of what is immediately appearing as the world and its nature.

From the individual perspective, one's whole life has been a never-ending appearance and disappearance of objects in and around one and this has never been anything other than this immediate living-ness, this first instant.

Gilbert Schultz

Open hand

Learn to live as an "open hand" instead of a "fist". The old mind know nothing about real trust - total nakedness. It only know hope and fear. The open hand is total unconditional trust.

Open hand.

Enlightenment is not some final product that "you can have".

" A saltdoll went to the big ocean with the intention to measure its depth. Upon diving into the depth, the saltdoll slowly dissolved..."

"Insecure is the dewdrop on the lotus leaf, as insecure is the life of man. Just one moment with a Sadhu (an awakened soul) can bring you over the sea of life and death.


Amen to that.

tisdag 24 juni 2008

We are always on the right place to the right time.

“One night the king dreamt that he was going to die the next day precisely at 8 p.m. In despair he called together all his wise men and asked them what to do. They suggested that he should saddle the fastest horse in the kingdom and ride away as quickly as he could. He followed their advice and rode as fast as he could.

He rode and rode until the horse was ready to drop. When they reached a big forest, the horse couldn’t take one more step and the king jumped off relieved and freed of his fear. That very moment Death stepped out from the shadow of a tree and said, ”I was just about to get worried whether you would be in time!”

We are always on the right place to the right time. It just can’t be different.

måndag 23 juni 2008



"to be what is, as it is". In this simple understanding the mind stops fighting itself. In a moment of no fight, the truth reveals itself in its simplicity and purity. It is a wordless answer that silences the mind forever.


söndag 22 juni 2008

If all there is is Consciousness?

If all there is is Consciousness, if there is only Consciousness, then why or
for what are you still seeking? If there is only Consciousness then right now
you must be that and everything else that appears in and as awareness must
also be that, including your sense of separate self if that is how you appear
now. Any personal sense of I or ‘doership’ or ego must be Consciousness.

What else could it be?

I, ego, time, thought, separation, - if all there is is Consciousness then is not
all of this already Consciousness? Any appearance of mundane, ordinary
existence can be no less of Consciousness than any appearance of
unconditional love, wholeness, bliss, stillness, silence or anything else. Does
anything really need to be transcended, found or let go of?

Why not live in this understanding, no longer requiring that you wait for all the
supposed signs of ‘enlightenment’ to appear?

Nathan Gill

fredag 20 juni 2008


The Hsin-Hsin Ming
Verses on the Faith-Mind

By Seng-ts'an,
Third Chinese Patriarch
Translated by Richard B. Clarke

The Great Way is not difficult
for those not attached to preferences.
When neither love nor hate arises,
all is clear and undisguised.
Separate by the smallest amount, however,
and you are as far from it as heaven is from earth.

If you wish to know the truth,
then hold to no opinions for or against anything.
To set up what you like against what you dislike
is the disease of the mind.

When the fundamental nature of things is not recognized
the mind's essential peace is disturbed to no avail.
The Way is perfect as vast space is perfect,
where nothing is lacking and nothing is in excess.

Indeed, it is due to our grasping and rejecting
that we do not know the true nature of things.
Live neither in the entanglements of outer things,
nor in ideas or feelings of emptiness.
Be serene and at one with things
and erroneous views will disappear by themselves.

When you try to stop activity to achieve quietude,
your very effort fills you with activity.
As long as you remain attached to one extreme or another
you will never know Oneness.
Those who do not live in the Single Way
cannot be free in either activity or quietude, in assertion
or denial.

Deny the reality of things
and you miss their reality;
assert the emptiness of things
and you miss their reality.
The more you talk and think about it
the further you wander from the truth.
So cease attachment to talking and thinking,
and there is nothing you will not be able to know.

To return to the root is to find the essence,
but to pursue appearances or "enlightenment" is to miss
the source.
To awaken even for a moment
is to go beyond appearance and emptiness.

Changes that seem to occur in the empty world
we make real only because of our ignorance.

Do not seek for the truth;
Only cease to cherish opinions.

Do not remain in a dualistic state;
avoid such easy habits carefully.
If you attach even to a trace
of this and that, of right and wrong,
the Mind-essence will be lost in confusion.

Although all dualities arise from the One,
do not be attached even to ideas of this One.

When the mind exists undisturbed in the Way,
there is no objection to anything in the world;
and when there is no objection to anything,
things cease to be— in the old way.
When no discriminating attachment arises,
the old mind ceases to exist.
Let go of things as separate existences
and mind too vanishes.
Likewise when the thinking subject vanishes
so too do the objects created by mind.

The arising of other gives rise to self;
giving rise to self generates others.
Know these seeming two as facets
of the One Fundamental Reality.
In this Emptiness, these two are really one—
and each contains all phenomena.
If not comparing, nor attached to "refined" and "vulgar"—
you will not fall into judgment and opinion.

The Great Way is embracing and spacious—
to live in it is neither easy nor difficult.
Those who rely on limited views are fearful and irresolute:
The faster they hurry, the slower they go.
To have a narrow mind,
and to be attached to getting enlightenment
is to lose one's center and go astray.

When one is free from attachment,
all things are as they are,
and there is neither coming nor going.

When in harmony with the nature of things, your own
fundamental nature,
and you will walk freely and undisturbed.
However, when mind is in bondage, the truth is hidden,
and everything is murky and unclear,
and the burdensome practice of judging
brings annoyance and weariness.
What benefit can be derived
from attachment to distinctions and separations?

If you wish to move in the One Way,
do not dislike the worlds of senses and ideas.
Indeed, to embrace them fully
is identical with true Enlightenment.
The wise person attaches to no goals
but the foolish person fetters himself or herself.
There is one Dharma, without differentiation.
Distinctions arise from the clinging needs of the ignorant.
To seek Mind with the discriminating mind
is the greatest of mistakes.

Rest and unrest derive from illusion;
with enlightenment, attachment to liking and disliking
All dualities come from ignorant inference.
They are like dreams, phantoms, hallucinations—
it is foolish to try to grasp them.
Gain and loss, right and wrong; finally abandon all such
thoughts at once.

If the eye never sleeps,
all dreams will naturally cease.

If the mind makes no discriminations,
the ten thousand things

are as they are, of single essence.

To realize the mystery of this One-essence
is to be released from all entanglements.
When all things are seen without differentiation,
the One Self-essence is everywhere revealed.
No comparisons or analogies are possible
in this causeless, relationless state of just this One.

When movement stops, there is no movement—
and when no movement, there is no stopping.
When such dualities cease to exist
Oneness itself cannot exist.
To this ultimate state
no law or description applies.

For the Realized mind at one with the Way
all self-centered striving ceases.
Doubts and irresolutions vanish
and the Truth is confirmed in you.
With a single stroke you are freed from bondage;
nothing clings to you and you hold to nothing.
All is empty, clear, self-illuminating,
with no need to exert the mind.
Here, thinking, feeling, understanding, and imagination
are of no value.
In this world "as it really is"
there is neither self nor other-than-self.

To know this Reality directly
is possible only through practicing non-duality.
When you live this non-separation,
all things manifest the One, and nothing is excluded.
Whoever comes to enlightenment, no matter when or

Realizes personally this fundamental Source.

This Dharma-truth has nothing to do with big or small,
with time and space.
Here a single thought is as ten thousand years.
Not here, not there—
but everywhere always right before your eyes.
Infinitely large and infinitely small: no difference,
for definitions are irrelevant
and no boundaries can be discerned.
So likewise with "existence" and "non-existence."

Don't waste your time in arguments and discussion
attempting to grasp the ungraspable.

Each thing reveals the One,
the One manifests as all things.
To live in this Realization
is not to worry about perfection or non-perfection.
To put your trust in the Heart-Mind is to live without separation,
and in this non-duality you are one with your Life-Source.

Words! Words!
The Way is beyond language,
for in it there is no yesterday,
no tomorrow
no today.


Nothing whatever is hidden;
From of old, all is clear as daylight.

The old pine tree speaks divine wisdom;
The secret bird manifests eternal truth.

There is no place to seek the mind;
It is like the footprints of the birds in the sky.

Above, not a piece of tile to cover the head;
Beneath, not an inch of earth to put one's foot on.

Sitting quietly, doing nothing,
Spring comes and the grass grows by itself.

The water before, and the water after,
Now and forever flowing, follow each other.

One word determines the whole world;
One sword pacifies heaven and earth.

If you do not get it from yourself,
Where will you go for it?

If you wish to know the road up the mountain,
You must ask the man who goes back and forth on it.

Falling mist flies together with the wild ducks;
The waters of autumn are of one color with the sky.

If you don't believe, just look at September,
look at October!
The yellow leaves falling, falling, to fill both
mountain and river.

The wild geese do not intend to cast their reflection;
The water has no mind to receive their image.

Scoop up the water and the moon is in your hands;
Hold the flowers and your clothes are scented with them.

Mountains and rivers, the whole earth,-
All manifest forth the essence of being.

The voice of the mountain torrent is from one great tongue;
The lines of the hills, are they not the Pure Body of Budda?

In the vast inane there is no back or front;
The path of the bird annihilates East and West.

From of old there were not two paths;
"Those who have arrived" all walked the same road.

Day after day the sun rises in the east,
Day after day it sets in the west.

Ever onwards to where the waters have an end;
Waiting motionlessly for when white clouds shall arise.

Wind subsiding, the flowers still fall;
Bird crying, the mountain silence deepens.

To save a life it must be destroyed,
When utterly destroyed, one dwells for the first time in peace.

Taking up one blade of grass,
Use it as a sixteen foot golden Budda.

Heat does not wait for the sun to be hot,
Nor wind, the moon to be cold.

If you do not kill him,
You will be killed by him.

To be conscious of the original mind, the original nature,
Just this is the great disease of Zen!

Like a sword that cuts, but cannot cut itself;
Like an eye that sees, but cannot see itself.

Perceiving the sun in the midst of rain;
Ladling out clear water from the depths of the fire.

Ride your horse along the edge of a sword;
Hide yourself in the middle of the flames.

You can not get it by taking thought;
You cannot seek it by not taking thought.

It is like a tiger, but with many horns;
Like a cow, but it has no tail.

Draw water, and you think the mountains are moving;
Raise the sail, and you think the cliffs are on the run.

The blue hills are of themselves blue hills;
The white clouds are of themselves white clouds.

In the landscape of spring there is neither high nor low;
The flowering branches grow naturally, some long, some short.

Alive, I will not receive the Heavenly Halls;
Dead, I fear no Hell.

He holds the handle of the hoe, but his hands are empty;
He rides astride the water-buffalo, but he is walking.

Entering the forest he moves not the grass;
Entering the water he makes not a ripple.

If you meet an enlightened man on the street,
Do not meet him with words, nor with silence.

Meeting, they laugh and laugh-
The forest grove, the many fallen leaves!

We sleep with both legs outstretched,
Free of the true, free of the false.

For long years a bird in a cage,
Today, flying along with the clouds.