Realisation is the absence of the person. As long as there is a realized person ther is no realisation whatosever. The truth is in the now, very fragile. Always alive. Nobody can catch it. Nobody can hold it. Because it holds us. And it catches us.
You have to surrender everything, everything you know. You have to leave everything you believ to be true. All your methods, all your stuff. You have to go to the truth naked. In not knowing.
In true humility.
In true surrender.