"You can wake up and mispercieve the whole awakening. You can wake up and say;"I am awake" Then what's happen? next moment I am not awake, I am cought in conditioning. The experience was there but then you personalized it. "I am a awake!, and I am going to keep it", you are cooked, you are doomed. Who is awake? Now you have a spiritual story and now I am "awake". The I destroys the deeper understanding of the experince that where there once."