Take a step back and look at the issue again and on what you are "thinking" to do? If there is some alertness, awareness about what is about to happen. In that seeing there can be the clarity that it's never go to work. That the journey is not necessary, it's a dead end. The battle is lost even before it started. But for oneness is even the disaster and the frustration not something bad or wrong, just what it is, as it is. Everything is welcome in this open vastness. This can be hard to hear for the mind. Nothing is denied. The seeking happens and is okay, until it's not.